meant to meet you but I couldn’t stay
till now never knew how life tears you away
now I wait for the springtime in spain, my love.
Beautiful being so sad and so strong
You gave me a story you gave me a song
When he played his guitar she would weep, my love
Rainy day, that spirit took flight
But she made him a cap full of magic and life
For his birthday to rule that great stage
And perform till I age, my love
Why did you never arrive?
Before you left us all tears in your eye
And your mother just told me you died, my love
To stay he was born, boy got rhythm within
Is to put it so mildly her crying face in
it would spring from all fibres of humanly everythings, my love
because, nothing's sure but that love never reasons
now the world might have lost all its springtimes
and all of the seasons are bleak without you, my love
Monday, February 5, 2007
For Daniel
Oh, Akin... Marie, Airiin, Nareg... and you so close to him, what could I possibly say to you? They say that the one thing harder to understand than death is the sorrow of others, and I can't even begin to imagine your pain.
I'm writing this for Daniel, trying to cope with these devastating, impossible news. I won't say as a friend, because we never were, and he's not here to correct me for claiming to be. The thing was, not being his friend was fine. As long as I knew that my classmate was happy and living his life.
I saw it at 5 am Sunday morning. Just checking my email before going to work. And the words "Sad News" created a sinking feeling in my chest I've come to be a little too familiar with. Yet I never expected the name Daniel Ahlsén to greet me. I was unable to move at all, just staring at the screen in disbelief, hoping that somehow I could undo it, force the words away, do something. The helplessness was unbearable, I couldn't even stop the numbing pain and sadness that overtook me, and the fact that Daniel is gone, it still hasn't sunk in. It just can't be true. So what if we'd only meet in 10 years and say hi. I still want everyone to be safe and happy, and knowing that now Daniel will never get to do all that he wanted to do, that he died, no, I can't accept it. He was Daniel, I remember him, he's right there in the pages of my yearbook. And reading about his death so far away, that feeling of helplessness... a small bit of this feeling will stay with me forever, and I'll always wonder how it could be his name in that email.
Goodbye, Daniel. I didn't know you, but I wished you all the best. How can you not get that?
Selina
I'm writing this for Daniel, trying to cope with these devastating, impossible news. I won't say as a friend, because we never were, and he's not here to correct me for claiming to be. The thing was, not being his friend was fine. As long as I knew that my classmate was happy and living his life.
I saw it at 5 am Sunday morning. Just checking my email before going to work. And the words "Sad News" created a sinking feeling in my chest I've come to be a little too familiar with. Yet I never expected the name Daniel Ahlsén to greet me. I was unable to move at all, just staring at the screen in disbelief, hoping that somehow I could undo it, force the words away, do something. The helplessness was unbearable, I couldn't even stop the numbing pain and sadness that overtook me, and the fact that Daniel is gone, it still hasn't sunk in. It just can't be true. So what if we'd only meet in 10 years and say hi. I still want everyone to be safe and happy, and knowing that now Daniel will never get to do all that he wanted to do, that he died, no, I can't accept it. He was Daniel, I remember him, he's right there in the pages of my yearbook. And reading about his death so far away, that feeling of helplessness... a small bit of this feeling will stay with me forever, and I'll always wonder how it could be his name in that email.
Goodbye, Daniel. I didn't know you, but I wished you all the best. How can you not get that?
Selina
Dear Daniel,
It can't be over. It seems like just yesterday we were "chilling in Akin's corner", and had worked in John's Burger just the day before that. You're one of the funiest guys I know. Your lust for life cannot just be gone, I don't believe it. You had done so many great things, and wanted to do so many more, you must still be out there. I still feel as though we could meet tomorrow.
A friend who cried,
Anton Chaevitch.
A friend who cried,
Anton Chaevitch.
"Daniel Ahlsén (no network) wrote
at 3:55am on January 29th, 2007
Yep, it was called Guttye school before the summer. But they changed it before the demolition though. Hope all is good, I better go and get something sugary now before I faint.
ciao!"
Buddy, did you not get enough sugary? If not, why did you not call me? I remember making fun of you for buying a lot of candy and you saying that you'd die if you did not have these candies. I thought that was all just a joke, wasn't it?
Buddy, this is not the right time... Remember, we still need to get old and I promise I will take care of myself and still be the same me so that you won't have to call a 19 year old prostitute. You will stay in my scene will get a taste of the action. Remember, just like you said;
"That dear old Akin does not in any way change life patterns and will always be followed and desired by attractive young women. And that is a good thing you see. Because when we all are old, rich and successful you will be the last one to call for a 19 year old prostitute to come to your office. Since you will have a couple of them coming for free anyways. So, when are in that state, I have to remember to stay in your scene. So even I can get a taste of the action." and it was not even a long time ago when you said that!!
You will still come visit me, right buddy? Just like we did in Norway, we will go smoke waterpipe,or just randomly go crazy, or have a cigarette with the beautiful coffee you make. We will still laugh with Xiaohang, sit with Per, Sanda, and Simon. I will still say "how the hell do you spell entrepreneurship (I still cannot do it)?" in the middle of an economics exam and you will laugh and laugh and laugh.
Like I said, come visit me anytime buddy! My room is smaller now, it is as big as my heart. But you can still fit in it, right? Just like you fit into my cupboard. And in that way, you will not have taken the other half of my heart from me... Does this sound like a deal to you?
I will put one more plate and one more glass of wine on the table on my birthday. You better be there, as you promised. And if there's anything I haven't done for you, please forgive me, buddy!
Your brother, your buddy,
Akin
Dear Daniel
Thank you, Daniel. Thank you for all the smiles and laughter. Thank you for the times we had - you know what I'm talking about. I know you wouldn't want me to break down in misery, but it is really hard. Everytime I think of your passing away, this feeling starts to eat away at me from the inside, and tears inevitably come to my eyes and run down my cheeks. The only cure for this malady is the memory of the times we had together. That turns the tears into laughter. You will never really leave me, Daniel, and I have this feeling that I probably would reproach under 'normal' circumstances, but I am 100 % sure that I will see you again. Until then, take care and thank you once again.
Your friend,
Mathias Esmann Poulsen
RCN '06
Your friend,
Mathias Esmann Poulsen
RCN '06
Sweet Daniel:
A tall vision with its quaky pace
A face so warm and pensive, an infectious smile...
All his very own expressions,
An unrelenting humour in the face of everything and anything
Ideas, ideas, and more ideas in the color of his own little streak of madness
Passion for coffee and music
for life and good stories...
I don't know where I stand now, but I know that at some point, you wrote:
" You will always keep a special, big place in my heart partly because of your incredibly warm personality and amazingly huge heart. Next year you will fill another section of my life and I know we will have more good times together."
You even drew a little pink heart!
So I guess that's all I need to know...
You know that I've been crying like a silly goose, and I can't manage to draw a nice smile for you like Nareg and Aiirin said we should. I'm sorry for that, dear Daniel... I promise that soon enough I will see that you lived fully and that you leave behind a great lesson for the rest of us to not waste life on anything but our passions... And then, I will smile for you, I promise... because I will know that you have had no regrets...
What I want to ask of you is to keep Your "huge heart" close by, so that your family and close friends can get through this. I will pray for them because I can imagine there's no greater pain than losing you...
Thank you for never waiting, never stoping at anything, living it up and making the best of what you had... Thank you for knowing how to find the humour in everything, in that way that you do... And thank you so very much for someday allowing me to be part of your heart, Daniel...
You will find an easier place I hope, in the life you have now, no more shots and fainting spells and dizziness, no more cares...
I give you all my thoughts and my prayers
Much Love,
Brenda Yara Younes
RCNUWC '04-'06
You turning my bass volume down, right before the beginning of Shukarja...and me telling you "Come on Daniel! I can't hear myself like this!!"...and you answering me..."Calma...Calma...Calma..." Is this gone?
Me and you making espresso in your day-room...and then going to smokers corner...once you offering me one of your fancy sigarettes...and once me rolling you a home-made one...Is this gone?
You leaving smokers corner, by lifting your hand...by lifting it in your own inimitable way: the Daniel-way of saying "I'll see you later"... - Is this gone?
You congratulating me on my scholarship... - Gone too?
You telling me about vacations in Italy and how Italian just made you laugh...
You telling me about your great plans...
That night me you and Salome walking on the Flekke road, and it was -10, and you carrying the flashlight...and us calling Mariano. And the lift Marina gave us...and what happened later... - has this also gone?
You telling me before the show "Come on Ramy!! It's going to be great!!"
Me and you playing together...rehearsing almost every day and then having that great performance...Wasn't it great?...It was...
Is this all over?
No it's not. It will never be. And the world should know who this guy was, a guy that was going to make a great man...but he's been called for far too early...too early...
You'll stay Daniel.
-Ramy
Me and you making espresso in your day-room...and then going to smokers corner...once you offering me one of your fancy sigarettes...and once me rolling you a home-made one...Is this gone?
You leaving smokers corner, by lifting your hand...by lifting it in your own inimitable way: the Daniel-way of saying "I'll see you later"... - Is this gone?
You congratulating me on my scholarship... - Gone too?
You telling me about vacations in Italy and how Italian just made you laugh...
You telling me about your great plans...
That night me you and Salome walking on the Flekke road, and it was -10, and you carrying the flashlight...and us calling Mariano. And the lift Marina gave us...and what happened later... - has this also gone?
You telling me before the show "Come on Ramy!! It's going to be great!!"
Me and you playing together...rehearsing almost every day and then having that great performance...Wasn't it great?...It was...
Is this all over?
No it's not. It will never be. And the world should know who this guy was, a guy that was going to make a great man...but he's been called for far too early...too early...
You'll stay Daniel.
-Ramy
Daniel (the White one) is Here
Year Book (last) page, bottom left corner; "Hello Sengeh, it's been nice knowing you. and when you get powerful after uni, i will hunt you down and use your power. TRUST ME ON THAT! Cheers/ Daniel (white one)"
I trusted you Daniel, everytime I met with you and (Akin, Nareg,...) there was no way we passed eachother without standing by for a couple of minutes to laugh about something. It's been all good. I still trust you and I know you will come back to use "[my] power"...
The new seed of inspiration your silence has caused is overwhelming- I will live to cherrish every other second I'll ever have here. Your life and it's goals/values of making this world a better place will forever shine. I will not be able to shed more tears, my eyes are dry. I would not think of you more than I have, it is impossible to think of you to the fullest.
But I will wait for you Daniel. You better come. Please come. I trust you and we should do this...
Peace and love to everyone including family and friends- Daniel is here.
David Moinina Sengeh
I trusted you Daniel, everytime I met with you and (Akin, Nareg,...) there was no way we passed eachother without standing by for a couple of minutes to laugh about something. It's been all good. I still trust you and I know you will come back to use "[my] power"...
The new seed of inspiration your silence has caused is overwhelming- I will live to cherrish every other second I'll ever have here. Your life and it's goals/values of making this world a better place will forever shine. I will not be able to shed more tears, my eyes are dry. I would not think of you more than I have, it is impossible to think of you to the fullest.
But I will wait for you Daniel. You better come. Please come. I trust you and we should do this...
Peace and love to everyone including family and friends- Daniel is here.
David Moinina Sengeh
daniel...
when the news reached me it seemed like an absurd dream, a very nasty joke. i couldn't believe my ears. it pained me, though as i had to realize and confront the truth.
right now my entire soul is filled with sadness, melancholy and a lot of pictureous memories of the college and daniel.
so much he's done i appreciated and admired. i remember organizing parties, student council meetings, jamming sessions, serving hamburgers at john's burger, random gatherings, ironic jokes. i remember all these. suddenly every image i see in front of my closed eyes have got its full brightness and colour.
and this, although all the pain and sadness, is the positive seed i cherish in my shattered soul: that daniel is going to continue live, as long as we do.
shine on, you crazy diamond. shine on daniel. shine on everyone.
we remember. i remember.
grzesiek (poland)
right now my entire soul is filled with sadness, melancholy and a lot of pictureous memories of the college and daniel.
so much he's done i appreciated and admired. i remember organizing parties, student council meetings, jamming sessions, serving hamburgers at john's burger, random gatherings, ironic jokes. i remember all these. suddenly every image i see in front of my closed eyes have got its full brightness and colour.
and this, although all the pain and sadness, is the positive seed i cherish in my shattered soul: that daniel is going to continue live, as long as we do.
shine on, you crazy diamond. shine on daniel. shine on everyone.
we remember. i remember.
grzesiek (poland)
Dear Daniel!
The whole day I've been keeping myself busy, avoiding the fact of what has happened. Avoiding having to say goodbye. But now when I had to go to bed, I couldn't stop the memories, the truth or the tears. The pain is too big to avoid. So my dear friend......."See you later Daniel"
You are an amazing friend and a wonderful person. Always a smile on your face and your arms wide open to hug at any moment. You help even when you do have a million things to do, and you are a person that always seems to be able to squeeze 30 hours into a 24 hour day. Your smile always encouraging and your soul always giving.
In the bosnian tradition, I have let the water run, to wish you a safe trip and there is a light burning for you in my room in case it gets dark, so you know how to find your way around.
You will always be in my heart and in my soul. You are an admiration to all and we can only dream to accomplish everything that you have.
To Daniels family and loved ones.....Nothing bad can be said or thought of Daniel. His life has been short, but more full with everything good then most lucky people ever have. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
"Vi ses min ven"!
Sasa
You are an amazing friend and a wonderful person. Always a smile on your face and your arms wide open to hug at any moment. You help even when you do have a million things to do, and you are a person that always seems to be able to squeeze 30 hours into a 24 hour day. Your smile always encouraging and your soul always giving.
In the bosnian tradition, I have let the water run, to wish you a safe trip and there is a light burning for you in my room in case it gets dark, so you know how to find your way around.
You will always be in my heart and in my soul. You are an admiration to all and we can only dream to accomplish everything that you have.
To Daniels family and loved ones.....Nothing bad can be said or thought of Daniel. His life has been short, but more full with everything good then most lucky people ever have. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
"Vi ses min ven"!
Sasa
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